Our story in a nutshell…
Crazy, Beautiful, Madness…

I can’t think of a better way to describe our love story than these three words: “Crazy Beautiful Madness”. Ours is a story full of unexpected situations and surreal experiences, dreams, odds, love, true connection, and loss.

Once-in-a-lifetime romance…

My love story began in the most unexpected way – on MySpace of all places! Back in the early 2000s, social media was not as ubiquitous as it is today, and I connected with a man who would eventually become the love of my life. He was drop-dead gorgeous, but his down-to-earth personality and sense of humour made him all the more charming. Living in Plymouth, England, he was thousands of miles away from my home in Baja California, Mexico.

Despite the distance, we stayed in touch for seven years through messaging and emails, chatting about our lives and sharing our thoughts on the world. We became good friends, sharing personal stories about our jobs and relationships. While we joked about meeting in person, neither of us ever thought it would happen. But after going through some stressful times, we finally decided to meet in person in Playa del Carmen, Mexico in 2012. That meeting would change our lives forever, as we fell deeply in love and began an incredible journey together.

Living the Dream

The memories of those 9 days in Playa del Carmen still make my heart skip a beat. The way we clicked was something I had never experienced before. We were both so different yet so compatible, and that made us even more attracted to each other. Our love was tested from the very beginning, with the distance and the uncertainty of whether or not we could make it work. But the love we had for each other was stronger than any obstacle we faced.

I remember pinching myself constantly. He was the most handsome guy I have ever seen, with piercing blue eyes, a beautiful smile, and a tall, chiselled frame that boasted a million-dollar jawline. And on top of that, he was so down to earth, with a contagious passion for life. He was driven, funny, courageous, and intelligent, and he proved his love for me every day we were together. I was living my dream. Everything I ever dared to wish for was right there in front of me, and I honestly felt like the luckiest girl on Earth.

I still remember the day he arrived in my hometown, it was a beautiful sunny day, and my heart was beating so fast. He looked nervous and excited at the same time. Meeting my family was a big step, but he did it with so much grace and ease. Seeing him sitting there with my family, laughing and chatting, made me feel like we were already a family.

After meeting my parents he asked me if I really wanted this to work,  if I was feeling the same as him, I had no doubts in my heart and I told him that I’d wait for him as long as it takes. So he went back to his hometown just to quit his job, sell his car, and rent his house out, say goodbye to his family and friends, and two months later he moved to Mexico just to be with me.

For the first time in my life, I felt truly alive and happy. This is what life is about, and this is what real love feels like.

After only nine months of being together, he took me to England to meet his parents and on Dec 17th 2012, and to my surprise he proposed to me on top of the London Eye, I was certainly not expecting that, but  I of course said yes, not only once but six times in Spanish and English, just in case there was any confusion hehe, he was such a romantic and I loved his spontaneity.

From the moment he proposed to me on top of the London Eye, my life felt like a fairytale. I couldn’t believe that someone could love me so much, to take me on such an amazing journey . We got married in San Diego in 2013 and we lived there for a year and then moved back to England, living in England was another dream for me since i was a little girl, so this move was like stepping into a storybook.
The rolling hills, the quaint villages, the moors, and the ancient castles all took my breath away. It was a magical time, full of new beginnings and endless possibilities.

But the greatest gift that he gave me was our daughter, Mia Luna. Holding her in my arms for the first time, I felt an overwhelming sense of love and gratitude. She was the missing piece of our puzzle, the one that completed our family and made our love stronger than ever. And watching him become a father, nurturing and caring for our daughter, was a sight that melted my heart.

Looking back on our journey, I realise that my life has been filled with so many blessings because of him. He showed me what true love means, and how it can transform your life in ways you never imagined.

First father-daughter photo

Waking up to a nightmare

The day my husband, Tristan, passed away was the day my life changed forever. It was a typical day, nothing out of the ordinary, until I woke up to my worst nightmare. Just four months after the birth of our daughter, Mia Luna, I found Tristan unresponsive in his sleep. I thought it was just a bad dream, that I needed to wake up from it, but the reality was far worse than anything I could have imagined.

I called for help, frantically trying to revive him, but it was too late. The paramedics arrived, but there was nothing they could do. Tristan was gone, leaving me with a broken heart and an uncertain future.

The shock of his sudden death still haunts me to this day. The trauma of trying to give him CPR with no success is a pain I wouldn’t wish on anyone. It’s something that no one can prepare you for, and it’s a pain that never goes away. Losing Tristan meant losing a part of myself, and I struggled to find meaning in my life without him.

For weeks after his passing, I was in a fog. I couldn’t eat, sleep, or even function properly. The people around me were there to help, but it felt like I was all alone in the world. I had to be strong for my daughter, but it felt like an impossible task. The grief was all-consuming, and I couldn’t see a way out of it

No Answers, Only Questions

The agony of not knowing the cause of Trist’s sudden passing was unbearable. The six-month wait for answers seemed like an eternity, and when the call finally came, it only left me with more confusion and despair. The questions swirled in my mind like a never-ending storm, tormenting me every day. How could this happen? Why him? Why us? I felt like I was losing my grip on reality, struggling to make sense of the senseless. It’s as if my world had been shattered into a million pieces, and I was left with the daunting task of picking them up and trying to put them back together. But the truth is, no amount of glue or tape can fix a broken heart. It takes time, patience, and a whole lot of courage to face the harsh reality of life without the person you loved most. And that’s what I had to do – find the strength to pick myself up and navigate this new life as a widowed mum, even on days when it felt impossible. It’s been a wild rollercoaster ride of emotions, but through it all, I have learned that even in the darkest of times, there is still hope for a brighter tomorrow.

My outlook now

Losing Tristan was the hardest thing I have ever had to endure, but it also taught me that I am stronger than I ever thought possible. It taught me that life is precious and that every moment we have with our loved ones is a gift. And while the pain will never fully go away, I know that I can honour Tristan’s memory by living my life to the fullest (not easy, still trying) and cherishing every moment with those I love, especially with our daughter Mia Luna. She has been my saviour, without her I would be lost.

Mia Luna has given me a new sense of purpose and has been my ray of light in the darkest moments. Her smile, her laughter, and her innocent eyes have been my daily reminder that life is worth living, even in the toughest of times. Thanks to her, I am able to smile again, and she has brought joy and meaning back into my life. She has taught me the importance of resilience, love, and hope, and I am constantly amazed by her strength and courage. As much as I am a mum to her, she has been a teacher and a source of inspiration to me, and I am grateful for every moment we share together. She has no idea how much she has impacted my life, and I hope to be able to show her one day just how much she means to me she has no idea the impact she has had in my life and she has taught me so much more than I could ever teach her

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